Wednesday last week, my one and only colleague did not show up for work. He did not answer his phone either. I knew something was wrong. News of a motorbike accident had been all over the news the night before, but I refused to see the connection. Until I got the phone call.
I look down at my almost 15 month old little girl running across the floor, picking up a small cup, running over to me in order for me to have a sip of her imaginative coffee. Looking at me with a ton of excitement, did Mommy like her drink? The small fingers eagerly take back the cup, and come back with an empty plate. This time we are eating something. So much love and gratitude fills me. The last weeks I have had this heavy stone in my stomach, the feeling of something that should not have happened. A fellow blogger lost her nearly 15 month old son Patrik to sudden infant death. http://theprogressiveparent-julie.tumblr.com
No parent should have to bury their child. But we know it happens all over the world, every day. This story touched me. And will continue to do so for a long time.
My colleague has survived his crash so far, although he is still in a critical phase. Little Patrik did not survive.
I used to be a professional base jumper. That means I leaped off mountains and other objects for a living. Going to this extreme made me appreciate my life every day. I recognized just how lucky I was, and every morning when I woke with a big smile. Slowly stepping out of this world and into one filled with work, housework and taking care of small kids, I have stopped doing this. I am surrounded by the most precious little beings but still I do not appreciate here and now like I used to. Yes of course, I had more time to contemplate life before. But I do believe that the most important thing is that we humans need to be reminded. We need to get out of our little bubble to gain the perspective we need to be happy. To really realize just how good life is and how lucky we are to be here now. Because nobody can guarantee you that tomorrow will come. The only thing we have is now.